Wednesday, August 25, 2010

what do i do?

she sent me a postcard dated 8/23 that says she's cured herself with sam-e and that she wants to see me.

that same day, she wrote on her blog the following:

"So I am in despair. I have to end myself.
I cannot isolate myself or end the carnage."

i have no idea what to do. i don't believe she would ever hurt herself. this is just another dramatic moment in her mind. but it's still scary as hell.

3 comments:

  1. This sounds scary to me as well. What is sam-e? Do you have a counselor or trusted friend you can talk to about this? One of my goals in counseling is to try to take gradual steps toward being more independent of what my mom does/says. It's a long road but seems worthwhile from the perspective of my own well-being.
    Good luck with this difficult situation,

    Ben

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  2. sam-e is a supplement that supposedly helps depression. which would be great if she was depressed. but she's not. she's a paranoid schizo.

    she has said things like this in the past, and it was always for her own purposes... but yes, i think you're right. i need to continue working on not letting her off-the-cuff comments get me going.

    grr.

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  3. It's such a difficult question as to how or whether to try and help a parent who is so far out. My mom can act pretty weird and be quite difficult but it's within a steady treatment context because she takes the right pills every day. It seems much more difficult when a person is not open to treatment. Do you have family who is able to deal with her effectively?
    Ben

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