i don't know who the call was from. after talking to my brother, the call i got wasn't from the right area code. which means i freaked out and lost my cool over nothing.
i guess it shows that there are some feelings that are still very, very raw. if she ever really does call me from this point forward, i'll try to handle it better.
i will handle it better.
I've been reading bits and pieces of your blog for the first time. As it's late where I am (England), I'm really tired and falling asleep here, but wanted to say that I really like your blog. I'm also the daughter of a schizophrenic too. It's refreshing and honest here, not a lot of people I know could actually understand what I'm saying about the subject. Have you spoken to your mum yet? I'll be sure to read the rest of your posts tomorrow, in order this time! You've inspired me to really start up my blog.
ReplyDeletei still haven't spoken to her. truth is that i'm kinda enjoying the amount of space, physically and mentally, that i have at the moment. i know that eventually she will try to contact me, but for right now, her total absence from my life has given me the ability to really start to heal.
Deletea lot of people don't understand what we are saying when we talk about our mothers. i'm always here :) the blog is a wonderful idea. i've really found it to be the most useful thing i've done for myself in a long, long time.