i have been looking forward to may 1st like you wouldn't believe. the beginning of the month means my support group meeting is coming up. i was such a mess at the last one, and i think i'm better now. i'm anxious to see them all and tell them how much better i'm coping.
i spent last night and yesterday alone, but not sitting at home on the couch. i took myself out to dinner, and then spent today wandering around a cute little town up north i had read about. spent the afternoon sitting on the porch of a french bistro, sipping vino verde and inhaling a bowl of mussels with fries on the side. it was beautiful. but still so alone. i don't know what it is that keeps me from calling my friends. sometimes i need the space. but i know today would have been more fun with someone along for the ride.
started to wonder if this is what my mother does all the time too, all alone upstate.
hi.
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for about a year now.
I have read it in good times & bad times. Our situations are similar & sometimes I wish we knew each other in real life...because i just want to give you a great big hug :)
Usually, something stops me from writing but tonite i just wanted to say that i'm here, I'm reading, i understand & i hope the healing continues :)
thank you so much! it really means a lot to me that we can all find each other out here, even if we aren't together in the real world :) it's nice to not be alone in the journey.
ReplyDeleteHi, I'm from Italy, I just found your blog. I have one about my mentally ill mother, too.
ReplyDeleteI really do understand what you're talking about.
Maybe you already know them, but I'd like to suggest you these 2 facebook groups about the topic:
Children of Parents with Mental Illness http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_95113476577
Adult Children of Parents with Schizo-Affective and Other Mood Disorders
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_35021114281
And this is also a useful blog I recommend you:
http://thecrookedhouseorg.blogspot.com/
Hugs,
Stefania.