Wednesday, October 13, 2010

eureka!

i am coming to slowly realize this important thing:

i think my boss reminds me slightly of my mother. that i am constantly on guard for her feelings and moods, because i am scared of an implosion. that everything i say to her is meant to either calm or keep calm. that our work relationship affects my personal life. and that i am always anxious, on a consistent daily basis, fearing the impending emotional roller coaster of the day.

after a year of wondering what it is that makes me "suck" at my job, i think this is it. i don't suck. i just work for someone who paralyzes me.

and now, how i go about fixing or improving this? other than asking for a transfer?

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